slacker

that i am. daaaaaaaaaaaaang. stop being so lazy, GLORIA!

i finished my 1st series!!

so i just finished my 1st 2 series of asthma classes at the elementary school in fremont. what a party! it was pretty neat and awesome i just wish the kids could take in everything i was saying. carol said i was a pretty excellent or extraordinary teacher which made me feel super great inside. those kids were a wild bunch - the 2nd class anyway - and it was nice to see them and their parents and to have the party and stuff. lol. anyway, good times. my next series starst next week. let's see if i can survive without carol!

now it's off to PNG meeting. :)

fare thee well.

ketchup

i remember the days when i used to lick it plain. naaasty.

so anyway, the good times have continued. last night i hung out with the usuals, AMY finally graced us with her presence AND ah-lun and pauli cameeeee from berkeley to visit me!!!! (actually they were just bored but lets just say they came cuz they wanted to see meeee) it was a grand ol' party and afterward i hung out with alanandpaul till the wee hours of the morning. we are G.A.P (glori, alan, pauli). tee hee. we were supposed to get tshirts in high school but it never happened. lol. anyway, that was fun.

then today i took kerry and garner out for DIM SUM in cupertino. gooood stuff. it was SOOO nice to see them. i was tired though but it was lots of fun . yayayayayayayy rooomie! and non-roomie!!

then i went to the library and could barely stay awake. i tried to work on the PNG lectures but to no avail. i made soe progress but not nearly as much as i needed to. hahaha. then on the way back to the house i got a call from alison and i ended up going wit her yan gordon and sam to ramen! goooood stuff. we saw marcia (my menteee) and her brother there, also some other stanford alum. thenwe got boba. then headed back to campus.

back at the house i honestly dont remember what happen. i slept till like 10pm. apparently melissa called me and i answered but i have no recollection. i woke up and then my hosuemates and i hung out inmy room. itsnow the hangoutspot cuz its super clean sorta.


k that's all. lol. gooodnight. :D

good times

the past few days have rocked.
i already wrote about thursday and picking up gary at the airport. that evening, i went with david, edwin, sam, and gordon to watch harold and kumar escape from guantanamo bay. it was soooo FUNNY! OMG. i was so tired because it was a midnight showing and past my bedtime but that movie got me crackin up hard. justin and gadson, zach, and ryan were there too! hahah. fun times.

friday morning i took gary to stacks and he really liked the food! it's so damn good. yay high five gloria. then i showed him university ave. and then the house and then introduced him to friends on campus and then back to the house to meet vi and lauren, melissa wasn't here. then we went to gelato! SOO GOOD, its called like gelay gusto or something. SOO FREAKIN good. we didnt really have gelato we had frozen yogurt. YUM. :) we had lots of fun together and vi kept making fun of him because i acted like his mom cuz i kept saying how happy and proud and stuf f i was. CUZ I AM. gooood boy! :)

then i dropped him off on campus and went back to the house. later in the day i played bball and saw this hot guy - i really really hope he wasn't a freshman, and gordon took a stalker picture for me. ;)

then we all had dinner together - it was so crazyyy and AWESOMEE! vi joined us!!! and a random profro! LOL. good times. it was hilarious. good times.

afterward, vy and i went back to the house, i took a long nap. then lauren woke me up so that we could go to the WEST LAG REUNION. in was SOOO FUN. omg. i got to see ARIE and CHRIS and SHIVANI and and a bunch of other folks. started off with playing kings, and then...they busted out...

ROCKBAND!!!!!!!!!!

OMG it was soooo much fun! i played it pretty much the rest of the night. gosh, what a fun night. i got to seee everyone and like talk to people and like..YEAH. oh and i met justin's older brother! hahaha craziness. anyway, we were at french house till like 2am. i was driving. lol. i'm the best driver the whole wide world.


as for today.............
i woke up early, started reading my MCAT book. so i was tempted to not go to PNG, but now i think i want to go. christopher was like, it's not worth to miss out on PNG just for 1 extra point on the MCAT or something like that. but yeah, i'm not sure what to do still, because i have to work on applications AND take the MCAT. i think what i might do if i go to PNG is start working on apps now...and then take the MCAT in the summer. yeah? lol anyway, that was early this morning. then i started reading up on the lectures for PNG because mine sucked and we all have to redo our lectures. then i had some oatmeal. then i talked to john for a lil bit. then i started CLEANING MY ROOOOOOOOOOOOOM. omg. it's such a mess! well now not so much anymore. BUT DAMN. i have so much laundry to do.

hahah jader is visiting lauren and he wants an estanfor shirt too! hahaha. wooo, all of us are going to have estanfor shirts i'm so excited.

catching up

this morning i picked up GARY from the airport @ 8am! WOOOO. i dropped him off at the alumni center and we saw CHRIS KHAVARIAN!

then i had class from 9:30-11am

then i went to white plaza with gordon to give a senior gift but we couldnt find it. activities fair was going on and i ran into a bunch of old people and my "profro"! yay i love gary!

then i had lunch at lag with MICKEY D!! yay he's so cool. go co sib!

then i met up with the usual gang at wilbur and sat for a lil while.

then yoga!

then class with justin, the stem cell.

then i drove home and took a nap.

then dinner with VANG KOU!!!! he's SOOO COOOL, and such a smooth talker. dang. lol. meanwhile i ran into a bunch of other people at manz, and i saw NHA!

yay, then it was IM tennis with LT and the rest of the team.

then it was dinner #2 with LT back at jerry.

now i'm back at the house.

oh boy. i'm FULL.

my second wind

so i was a little stressed because i wanted to do the bare minimum and then graduate, but now i'm starting to think that maybe i shouldnt be so lazy. i went to the stem cell class for the first time today and the lady was HELLA boring, but i think i might still take it because the course description seems interesting and it'd incorporate a lot of disciplines that i'm now interested in. :) policy included! woot. the midterm is next week but i figure if i suck at it, i can just take the class pass no pass and it'd still count. woooo

on that note, like i said before, i think i should get right into taking MCATs and get the whole med school app process on the road if you know what i mean. it'd be nice to stay in SD but i dont know if (1) i can even get into UCSD, and (2) if i'd even want to go there. anyway, yeppers. okay, tis all!

ta ta!

nutrition midterm

so i had my nutrition midterm this morning @ 9:30am. boy was it a party. i started studying around 9pm or 10pm last night, and was exhausted by midnight, so i went to sleep and woke up around 4am and then studied till my exam. actually i took a nap from 5:30am -6am. haha, man i can't believe i procrastinated so badly. anyway, it was worth it --vegas on the weekend, joe visiting sunday, dinner with david -and leila - last night...but never again. haha. i'm so tired.

so..i've been thinking...i think i may withdraw from papua new guinea over the summer. maybe i'll just put the money towards taking an mcat prep class. gosh, so expensive. plus, i'm sorta tired of traveling. i just want to stay in 1 place kinda -> HOME (where my <3 is). heehee. anyway, i'm really leaning towards it but i'm not going to withdraw right away because i'm not sure if it's a temporary feeling and idont want to regret it later.

living life

i sorta feel like early on in life i created these "truisms" by which to live and judge events that happened in life. i just held it them as a given so that i wouldn't have to worry about it much..sorta like "that's just the way that is.." for example. anyway, its okay if it doesnt make sense...the point is i lied to myself and made myself believe and feel different things so i kinda got messed up. hahaha. oh boy, anyway just a thought.

teaching

man, i feel like a suckie teacher. i was really tired today, to the point where my voice was a little hoarse. well i did a lil bit of shouting too - the second class was hella rowdy. i felt like i really held their attention during the game, at which point they were still crazy but at least it was about the game. anyway, i feel like i need to learn about the meds better. i feel like my teaching skills are sorta sporadic - sometimes im a good teacher and sometimes i suck balls. part of the reason i felt off today was cuz i started the class while my co-teacher was on the phone bc we had to get started but it also kinda threw me off. anyway, BLAH. i need to know my material better if i'm going to teach it...

anywho, hopefully as a whole i'll get to be a better teacher after this quarter...and after this summer! wooo. wow, i guess i'm getting lots of teaching experience.
-artspan: teaching kids arts and crafts
-lectures in vietnam medical project
-science in service: science lessons with kids
-ravenswood: tutoring a 1st grader in reading
-ACCESS: high school and college kids; various college level lectures
-TECC: teaching teachers english/how to teach english

and now these asthma classes and in the summer the PNG lectures

despite all this experience, i dont know if i'm actually geetting better at teaching. i think i'm staying the same. i guess it depends on what i'm teaching and the crowd i'm working with.

ahh..i'm tired.

time to do some studying for my MIDTERM. AHH.

joe chan - BREAKFAST!

joe was visiting today! we all played bball and i canceled some dates i had to hang out with him and the others and i saw ALEX and JULIE!!! after bball we helped joe move some of lang's stuff and ate at spice islands. then we got some tapioca express - yummmmmmmmmy - and i took joe moe to the house to chill for a lil, then idropped him off on campus at tressider where we also ran into lang - PERFECT TIMING. it's so great to see everyone and to see that they're doing so well. makes me proud. :)

anyway, time for me to get to work. i have to do some prep for the asthma class tomorrow and i have a MIDTERM TUESDAY for nutrition. i feel like i keep pushing the studying aside but i really should not underestimate it. eeeeek. gotta study!!!!!

okay, goodnight!

vegas

man, it's always so hard to see people from home in the middle of school and for such a short time because i always miss 'em too much afterward. anyways, vegas was sooo. though the main reasons i went were for swimming, tennis, and clubbing, drinking became a recurring theme throughout the trip, from the time i arrived in vegas (i went straight to the yardhouse happy hour straight from the airport) to the very end (V-bar at the venetian till like 430am).

day 1:
yardhouse (vodka shot - kamikaze- g..somethig - pear cider)
bally's
failed attempt at the pool
everyone passes out and skips out on the venetian
dinner at the chinese restaurant in chinatown
failed attempt at clubbing
chillin at bally's


day 2:
late wake-up
tennis match
lunch at malaysian restaurant
venetian--bally's--tennis match! GO CARMEL VALLEYYYYY
back to get ready
failed attempt at club tao at the venetian (adios muthaf-aa)
"clubbing" @ V-barrrrr (gin n tonic, vodka shots (2), long island, moreee)

day 3:
airport!!!

major workout

dang...bike ride to school
abs and gluts
total body workout
hip hop
dang...

GOOD STUFF yo!

i feel bad taking and taking and taking

so remember that good deed, offering a friend a ride to the airport? well i TOOK IT BACK. oh im a horrible, so horrible. furthermore, dana gave me A BIKE..like a NICE BIKE and its SOOOOO AWESOME AND AMAZIN but i felt bad taking it because i feel bad. lol. im super grateful. jeeze, dana's an awesome SUPER AWESOME person and i wish him all the bestest. even my housemates think he's like the sweetest nicest guy at stanford just from having known him in the past. balls...furthermore, i took lee chang's old phone. i guess i feel uncomfortable having all these people's stuff cuz i feel like i owe them even though they "gave" it to me. well, they have my love. hahah... i guess that's cool right?

anyway, today was a pretty cool day. nutrition class is really interseting, i learned all about sports nutrition and eating and stuff..interesting stuff. really interesting. yoga was good as usual, especially the last part when we just laid there. lol.

i had dinner at jerry. gosh, justin's awesome. even though he's a punk sometimes to people and says not so nice things, he's not a punk to me so..dang, what can i say? he's a good friend. lucas is amazing too...gosh, good people. and i got to see LT and his drawgroup. that was fun. LT got me to play for his IM team..how you ask? he asked me...twice. that's all it took. yep, i'm a sucker cuz LT's too cool for school. anyway, i laughed my ass of with justin and lucas. why? i'm not sure. all justin kept saying was 'you're on crack gloria' while i couldnt' stop laughing. lucas kept saying 'pull my finger' or like 'break my cracker' or like 'pull my thumb'. hahahah, dang, fun times.

after dinner i had nutrition section. then i made a quick stop at trancos. then i headed back to the house, and went out for gelato. i didnt buy any but i stole some of lauren and vy's..it was SOOOO GOOOD.. omg. i have to go back when i'm not so full!

since then, i rushed to finish a grant app to get some dinero for my trip to papua new guinea. i guess i'm really going. lol. anyway, it's way expensive - the flight costs anyway. it'll be about 1500-1800 to singapore but i dunno about to PNG. so yep, costs up the ass. hopefully i'll be able to get some money from these grants...


TOMORROW! HIP HOPPPPPPPPPPPPPP i love it!

listening to: alan luo - zi wo cui mian
this is my crush! :) looks partly, but really personality!

happy camper

today has been a pretty good day. :) and i've totally been doing good deeds all over the place, just cuz i've felt like it so i'm pretty proud of myself.

this morning i drove melissa to school and as we were driving out, we ran into my old pwr2 classmate who lives in the little shack right next to our house so i offered to drive her and her friend to school. yay, good times. in my chinese class, it was kind of tough but it was all right. leila beach said she loved me because i was taking her to the caltrain station after class. this one freshman in my class has the MOST AWESOME VOICE - i dont know if it's cute or if it's hot or maybe both! :) so afterward, i took leila first to jack in the crack and then to the caltrain station.

i didn't have too much time to eat but it's all good, because i went to fremont to teach asthma class, #2! it worked out really well, the kids were more or less on time and in terms of teaching, carol and i took turns teaching the different parts (because we were teaching 2 different classes). it was fun and nice and i just wish i knew the kids were getting a lot out of it. these kids are so tough, having to deal with asthma at such a young age and knowing that ppl die from asthma. it's kinda crazy. one girl even has to deal with migraines. man, true troopers. anyway, this class was a review of last class - what happens during an asthma attack and symptoms - and then new stuff on warning signs and triggers, and how to use a peak flow meter. the olde rclass was a little rowdy but it was all good. their prize was a mini madlibs book! how cool is that!??!

i drove back afterward, crossed the toll and the STINKY STINKY dumbarton bridge. i made it back for like 5 minutes of total body workout, and then i went to subway and sat outside tressider till about 5pm..went to my meeting which was uber boring, and i think i was all antsy cuz i REALLY REALLY wanted to be in hip hop class. :( i got out around 6:10 and rushed over to hip hop and caught them doing their last few stretches. BALLS. anyway, after that, since everyone was busy doing something and i wanted to play basketball (considering i hadn't really done anything active all day) i went over to the WCC to hit against the wall. it was really good and very therapeutic. at one point a little girl dressed as a tomboy was hitting next to me and i thought she was so cute and reminded me of myself. lol. as i was letting it all out, grunting like no other, and going crazy, i was thinking..hmm, this is a good place to meet people. lol, and next think you know some guy comes up to me and asks if i play for the stanford team, which is o so very flattering, but i said no and then he asked if i was a student and then i said yeah, and then he was like can i get yo numba so we can hit sometime? and i was like sure, so we exchanged numbers. lol, what's funny is that he thinks i'm going to call him. PSHHH, i'm afraid i don't do that to strangers. haha, whatevers. my ball got stuck in the fence around 8pm, so that was the end of my wall-hitting.

back at the house, i took a shower, and then i did another good deed and agreed to take alyssa to the airport on wednesday. oh, and i offered to pick up melissa from campus tonight if she needed. gosh, i'm just feeling extra friendly at the moment. eek.

OH, and as i was driving home from campus, i was thinking about my whole thing where i tend to like guys who are either 4 years older than me or 1 year younger, and so yep, i have major crushes on 2 sophomores, 1 white, 1 black. amazing. there's a really cute guy in this other class who's asian who i've never talked to but i'm going to guess he's probably a sophomore too. man, good times. :)

i'm eating my salad from jack in the crack at the moment. if i'm still hungry, i'll probably eat the rest of my subway sandwich. i'm going out for gelato and studying later with the housemates. woot.

song of the day: pitbull - go girl

target

so my housemates - lauren and vy, that is - and i went out for sushi today. we ate at DAN CY SUSHI. it was reallly really good. mmmmmh. i miss my salmon teriyaki bento plates from nozomi's...but this was a pretty decent version. =P i'll have to come back for the lunch boxes. why do restaurants think that they can bump up the price like several dollars and serve LESS FOOD just cuz it's dinner time. bitches. yes, that's right. anyway, it was a lovely restaurant and they had pretty fancy presentation of dishes.

afterwards, we went to target. i got myself some awesome boxers - woooot - and sandals and a bathing suit top. holler. vy got some shoes too and almost got another bathing suit. it was a nice bonding experience. i feel like our relationship has reached a new level considering they saw me partially naked. lol. anyway, we stayed there a good long time. it was nice...it kinda feels like summer. :) summer makes me happy. the happiest times of my life have been in the summer. no doubt.

i have a phone now thanks to lee chang. i talked to my parents and then to my sister. looks like they might be flying up from SD. woot. there's still annie and john. hopefully they can fly up too.

accomplishments for the weekend

-paid the rent.
-lost the KRAZR and found another phone to use (thanks lee chang!).
-spent $100 in 2 days.
-laundry

dang. AHHH. hahah.

on another note: now that spring quarter is here, i realize i should have just planned better and graduated winter quarter. lol. i feel like i'm wasting time and money (not my money, but people's money). i'm only taking 12 units, and i only needed the 3-unit bio class. furthermore, by the time graduation day hits i'll be at like 211 units. AHH. hahah, what a waste. WASTE. i'm really good at that...wasting time..wasting money...UGH. i'm so disgusted with myself. yuck. now i'm going to go spend more $ for dinner. i'm glad i'm running low on money; it'll teach me the value of a buck. i'm so fucking spoiled. disgusting.

tennis

i've missed playing tennis. it feels so good to hit the ball like..the right way..solidly. man. i miss those summers when i would go out to hit till the sun set and then head out to the pool or to the beach. anyway, i'm glad i'm doing lots of activity classes cuz it gives me a lot more energy. i'm still not all that fit, but it's really nice to get exercise in. it's also been a good way for me to just get away..from whatever.

i'm really excited about going home. i just hope nothing gets in the way...

next week i'm going to vegas to hang out with the tennis folks. i'm kinda just seeing this as a minivacation, not that i need one, but it'll be fun to just hang out and cheer 'em on. they're playing in a tournament there. yay.

currently listening to: linkin park - shadow of the day.

oh, on another note, i've been having weird dreams...like ones that involved a particular other person. it's weird. like i said, my dreams have been really really vivid - it's kinda scary.

tired

all this exercise is making me tired. lol. it's good, but i'm just tired.

anyway, i had more to say earlier, but i forgot what i was going to say.

brian is probably going to drive up on saturday to watch the hip hop show in SF. woooooo. it's wayyyy super dee duper coooooooooool! and CRAZY. i never woulda thought he'd drive up here but if he does, way COOOL. :D

part of 2 worlds

this is sort of an add on to the last post. i feel like i'm part of 2 very different worlds - the stanford world - carefree, unreal, fake, but very conducive to learning, and the real world - harsh, uber surprising and scary.

it's so WEIRD to be spending my days at this paradise of a campus where i can play ping pong, work out in a really nice gym, play some tennis whenever i feel like it, get free food wherever i go, when interspersed throughout the day i get messages from home that shock me into realizing what a crazy world it is outside of stanford. in the past few days, i have heard about death, murder, abuse, major family problems, broken relationships etc which have been juxtaposed to my yoga classes, gym workouts, dinner outings, and frisbee playing. ah it just boggles my mind and is very bothersome. whatevers. i'm not being very articulate... but it just reminds me of what some stanford student said back in the day - i think some spoken word person - about how we come to stanford to forget. i have no doubt that it's true. we come here and forget about our home lives our troubles our stresses and just focus on school - i mean that's why we're here - and create new worlds of our own on campus. i'm not saying its bad or good because it's both, but the thought is definitely a little unsettling.

life's too short

so in light of the shit load of drama that's been happening around me, i thank God that my family and friends are still well and have their health and i pray for them all to be super dee duper strong during the tough times they are going through. i cant believe the things that i've been hearing about lately. it's really sad the shit that goes down in this world and this is one of the reasons why i have no qualms about going back home to san diego and spending time with my family. i'm making like hispanics and enjoying the here-n-now before it's too late. sure the hard work is invested for the return later, but there's definitely good that can come from enjoying the present. plus, it's not only about spending time with my family because i will definitely be learning a lot when i go back home. hopefully i'll learn more about the community so that i can go to school and work in san diego in the future. plus, i can probably work the american lung association teaching those classes to kids - word is san diego just go mucho dinero to run these classes, and being a border city with mexico, it'll be prime location for me to beee. anyway, this is besides the point. anyway, just saying that life is short and time is precious and i want to spend as much of it as i can with the people that i love most = mi familia!!! i must admit that i will miss my friends from college mucho mucho but since they'll be big balling hopefully they can visit me in SD *wink wink* where i'll treat them to some good food and take good care of 'em.

i've just got in touch with mike zhang from kimball again. he's going to UW for an MDPhD. i'm so happy for him! he's also doing this biking marathon thingie for ppl with...oh shoot! i forgot. anyway, i donated dinero to the cause and i'm uber excited. i'm so happy that there are all these good people in the world. it makes me SO happy.


oh, and i should also note that i taught my first asthma classes today!!! it was a lot of fun, but i wish my talking were a lot smoother and polished. i was sorta improv-ing and i didn't like that. i really want these kids to take away soo much for this class because i'm told that they are soo useful for them, especially coming from lowincome backgrounds and having parents that dont know too much about asthma. i hope i will get better at this sort of thing because i definitely wouldn't mind if it was an integral part of my career in the future - teaching disadvantaged folks about basic health, etc...in san diego, hopefully i'll be able to continue teaching asthma to kids. eventually it'd be nice to teach about nutrition and other issues. i could come up with my own lesson plans and stuff! how fun would that be? i figured it could be a side job to being a doctor. anyway, the kids were way cute. i must say i felt more comfortable around the 6th graders because they were straight up ghetto and i was like YEEA and a little bit of my gangsta ness came out. lol. i think it's cuz at that age, the personality of the person who is teaching, i feel, comes a little bit more into play - which is to my advantage because i dont know if i teach that well but i make funny faces and do weird things which would appeal to their age group more, i think anyway. i dont know though. guess i'll find out eh?? anyway, i will definitely try to be more prepared for next week. i'll try. lol.

so i guess i jumped topics. anyway, point is, i gotta do what i love and i gotta be with who i love.

bonding time

i've been doing a lot of bonding with different groups of friends. it's been really nice but really hard on my attempted head start on school work. whatevers, right? hehe. i'm trying to get organized at the moment. oy, que dificil!

oh another note, i'm going to start keeping track of what i eat for my nutrition class. i'm really excited about learning about nutrition and junk cuz a lot of it i guess is supposed to be intuitive and junk..but it'll be nice formally learn about it and to keep track of calories and energy because it seems like a semi-healthy habit, especially cuz i eat bags of candy in single sittings.

parties

i went to justin's bday celebration today! it was nice to see everyone from freshman year...it felt really nice, and made me happy. it was still slightly awkward but i guess it sorta brought some sort of closure to my time here at stanford. anyway, i said happy birthday to justin and all, and my housemates were all there! yay! fun times. i also saw some of the other jerry people that i came to meet fall quarter. :) happy times. then karen nga came and was like WOOO let's take a shot, so her vy and i took a shot of vodka - a big shot i might add. oh boy, was it WARMING. then i went off all happy and giggly with the other girls and tim, and we went to theta delt for a party hearty. we couldnt get in so we went to 680 for the lambda party first, for like a few minutes, then back, and danced for a while. it was soooo fun! yay for dancing with my housemates. lauren kept getting hit on by all these sophomores -kekeke, and then we hung out in the parking lot for a while and they all talked while i did something. i think i was doing cartwheels. anyway, fun times. we walked back to jerry where our cars were and sang songs and danced. it was lovely.

dreams

i woke up crying just now. i dreamed that my friend's dad passed away and that we were all on this huge boat and there were crazy flowers - i remember thinking some were chrysanthemum's and tin was there, too, and it seemed like we were having fun - he was giving me a piggy back ride and stuff. then i remember seeing Mr. Brooks looking really solemn and i went to shake his hand and to give him a hug, and then i remember turning away because i thought back to when i first sorta met my friends dad and realized how dramatic his impact was on me. wo him, i wouldnt have met those 2, who have changed my life. i turned away immediately and starting crying. i thought about how he called me "champion" all the time and treated me well. when i woke up i was still crying. how sad, how very sad for many reasons. *sigh*

i've been way exhausted lately. i feel like i haven't gotten a break - in between classes i keep trying to catch a nap in someone's room and i keep going from activity to another. on a brighter note, i finally got a new phone battery and was able to talk to ava for an hour without it dying. :)

so my post-graduation plans are probably going to entail going back home and working at the restaurant. i'm really excited for many reasons, most of all, seeing my parents. as much as i want to take up extracurriculars and do things and as much as they want me to do well in school and beyond, there's no doubt that we have to see each other in order for either of us to be happy. it's been too long since i've seen my parents for an extended period of time...not only them but my brothers too. brian i-med me today and told me i have to make time for him. he told me we had to travel together and that i've been leaving him. (i just started crying again - i'm really emotional especially listening to this cirque du soleil music). GOSH, i feel like such a bad family member. all i've been doing is taking and taking - i feel selfish. i really want to give back. i wnt to be rich for my family so that they can have everything they ever wanted. gosh. AHHHHHHHHHHH

just a thought

in econ class we talked about pay as you go systems - like social security, where the young put in and the old take out,and as the young age they can expect to benefit from SS later in life. well in education, you have reverse pay as you go systems, where the old put in and the young benefit. well in this case there's market failure - because parents put money into their kids education
, but dont really benefit - its the kids that benefit. so this case suggests that parents shouldnt be investing in their kids education from an economic standpoint because they dont get returns, just their kids benefit.

anyway, i guess im thinkin abou tthis because i was just talking to my jigga, who talked about taking care of his family. i was thinking bout how parents rarely get any rate of return after all their investment in their kids. thinking about my family, thinkingn about all the kids in my family...about who would be taking care of my parents..the eldest is doing well, but it's a matter of how much he will be spending on his future family if you know what i mean...my sister is still figuring things out for herself...the other brother, school just isnt working out well for himand he's working part time...anyway, trying to be ambiguous about what i'mt ring tosay because i dont know who will be reading this, i want to be a rich insofar as i can give my parents everything they want. haha. i guess that was anticlimatic. whatevers. anywho, time for bed. goodnight.

the beginning of the end

so i decided to start this new blog and write about my time at stanford since...1. it might be nice to share my experiences at Stanford because i haven't ever done so before and 2. it might be good to remember how i felt as my college days were coming to an end.

i've been super tired these past few days still trying to catch up on my sleep. i drove to school with Vy at about 930am, and had chinese class - 1st year, 3rd quarter bilingual. It was nice to see Liao Laoshi again - she loves me and i love her! It's such an awesome class because she's an amazing teacher. very energetic and enthusiastic. i'm excited about reading actual stories in chinese!!! after chinese, i went to Economics of Education, which is being taught by a prof who i guess we took from harvard. to get her to come here, stanford gave her husband tenure. pretty slick move i guess. anyway, i enjoyed the lecture VERY MUCH. she's a great prof and apparently a genius, and she talked about issues that i've thought about, for example - what's the point of going to college? one of the main things she said was that college is only good if it provides a good rate of return, so one should only go to college until the rate of return equals his or her discount rate (i'm not TOO sure what that means) in order to maximize. i think the math might get to be over my head, but i'm going to try and audit it.

i had lunch on lee chang and with zhihao at Olive's Cafe. i had a beef gyro. yummmm. oh how i've missed good food from the States, and it's so much cheaper here! In Europe, the food was way variable and muy expensive.

i took a nap in trancos and at 3pm gordon and i went to TOTAL BODY WORKOUT. it was HILARIOUS. i cracked up the entire time, especially at the beginning. the best part was probably our skipping and reaching with the hands, OH and the SQUATs, the PULSING SQUATS. lol. oh boy. i was using 1lb weights the entire time. i'm such a stud. :)

i took another nap and then went to dinner at 5:45pm. this time, the meal was on edwin! woot. yes, i'm a bum.

7pm to 8:15pm i had a class called "Community Health: Contemporary Issues in Family Health and Patient Advocacy". looks like it will be really good. i'm so excited!

afterward, i ran all the way to tressider because i knew that it was danny's birthday and everyone was heading over to roble and my phone was dead. for some reason, the battery has only lasted like 20 minutes. weird eh? i have to get a new one. i happened to run into gordon, dtrieu, steve, and edna on the way, so we all went to lake lag together to find danny. it was cute cuz he was blind folded and they had took him on a raft into the middle of the lake. we sang him happy birthday from the shore, then went back to Roble for some Asian snacks. then we lingered and played pool and piano and foosball.

as the clock struck 10pm, i rolled out toward my car. i called my mommy as i charged my phone, and then made the short drive back to the house.

since then, i've just been trying to figure out classes. i'm going to take the bare minimum. so it looks like this:

Human Nutrition (4 units)
Chinese (3 units)
Community health (2 units)
Total Body Workout (1unit)
Hip Hop (1 unit)
Yoga (1 unit)

Total = 12 units.

yeah, i know. i'm a lazy bum. actually i have a lot on top of this. in addition,

Teaching Asthma classes to elementary school kids - Mondays for 3 hours
Meetings and prep for medical project - Monday evenings
Volunteering for the Family Resource Desk - 3 hours a week (5 times during the quarter)

i'm also going to be hanging out with friends because it's our last quarter together.

my schedules a lot more hectic than oxford. i do miss the free time...oh well. at least i experienced it. :)

i'll try and update this blog as often as possible. that's all for now. i need to catch up on sleep!