don't worry, be happy

gosh, so i have sooo much to do! those stinky lectures are taking forever. at first i was really excited to write them, and i still am cuz i'm learning so much, it's just taking a long time and i'm always tireeed. ahhhh.

so anyways, i'm trying not to stress too much cuz that's just taking years away from my life. though not sleeping isn't helping either! ahhhh. anyway, i'm going to just relax cuz everything's going to be just fine...eddie said so, no unnecessary worrying...there are worse things in the world. hahaha.

i guess i've already internalized that without knowing because i've been "slacking off" like crazy. by slacking off ij ust mean hanging out. i really haven't been all that lazy to tell you the truth. i've been hanging out with different groups of friends, taking care of other matters..it's just rough with my school schedule cuz classes are way spread out and lots of them are activity so i get tired..on top of that i've been teaching the asthma classes, trying to get the family resource training thing done so i can volunteer in the pediatric ER and working on this PNG stuff, which is really what's taking up all my time. so i haven't been slacking, attn has just been diverted away from school stuff to other stuff...i've been doing shitloads. lol.

let's see...
friday - lunch with TINA, dinner with LEILA (i think i wrote about this already), sib outing - gelayo gusto and TAP, then working until 5am

saturday - showing mai (from the vietnam access program) around from noon - 3:15pm,
swimming - OMG I LOVEEE FAMILY DAY AT THE POOL IM TOTALLY GOING BACK AGAIN -from about 4-5pm; then i took mai to the caltrain; then i went to eat at sushi tomo with YAN and ALISON..omg, that was SOOOOOOOOO FUN, i can't explain it...it was just really chill and relax and just hanging out with friends....then Charity Fashion Show afterward (oh we watched what what in the butt beforehand)..then "partying" in gordon and edwin's room, which was watching HOUSE (it's really addicting!) then sleeping over till the morn...

sunday - dragon boat practice from 9:30am-1:30...Japan Day at Bechtel for the food till about 2:30...trip to Jack in the crack for some more food -yay asian chicken salad...then my sister wanted me to do some stuff for our mom's mother's day gift which took a while..then i showered (funny story, well not really)...then, i cancelled going to the oxford reunion because i had so much work to do and it'd be awkward because well haha yeah...sent some emails, calculated my science GPA and decided that if i dont want to take Human Nutrition for a letter grade it's cool cuz i have about a B average..hahah, im such a lazy bum, then alison invited me to eat, so i went to subway and dined wit her and gordon and yan and sam...then it was back to the house where i had some tea and did some facebooking.................then i got started working on the lecture notes....then my mommy called and i talked to her for a good half hour...ummmm..yep! and throughout this time i've facebook chatted with lauren and justin and gchatted with david. wooooo

hahha, anyways so i really just want to be happy. i'm very content at this moment because i'm really warm in my clothes and super comfy...i really want to sleep but i shouldn't. anyways, i'm excited to be graduating and going home (well i guess after PNG) because i keep thinking about how people don't live forever and accidents happen and like...well anyway, i just don't want to regret not spending more time with the people i love. you gotta enjoy life ya know? that's what i learned from the chileans...they did the whole work hard now, get rewarded later bit-the whole delayed gratification thing - but like they knew how to live life, naw what i mean? so much love and happiness...dang. lol, sometimes i feel like just running off and geting married and starting a family and just living life day by day and just being happy knowing that i'm taking care of my family...but knowing me i guess i'd feel a little selfish and not too happy because i sorta kinda want to make a difference in the world. lol. maybe if i had grown up in another country, like vietnam, i could do something like that, but i dunno.......my thoughts are incoherent cuz i'm hella tired.

anyways, i gotta get back to working. i gots a busy few days ahead. :)